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I watched my Guru breathe his last. I stood there in silent communion, with my hand on his knee as he breathed heavily, hoping he would intuitively sense my presence and my feelings. He stopped breathing within a few minutes.

My association with Rajam Sir is 25 years old. March 1985 to Jan 2010. It is hard to express in words what this period meant to me. It has enriched me in innumerable ways.

I think of Rajam sir in so many little things everyday. The warmth with which he would teach his students, the willingness to give and share, the small things he derived happiness from, his simple needs .

I don't know how Rajam Sir could do as much as he did each day. His repertoire is perhaps unmatched. While documenting his audio classes (recorded in cassettes through a simple recorder- to the accompaniment of a manual sruti box alone!) I am astounded at the variety of ragas and songs he knew. He is generally associated with Vivadi ragas and Kotiswara Iyer, but his repertoire of Thyagaraja and Dikshitar kritis is phenomenal. I have seldom heard him say he does not know a song. In fact some senior musicians have joked with me about this saying -- it was so good to have your guru Rajam Sir participate in Akhandams---he would be given the late night slots when he would bring his little book and sing unheard of songs through the night!

He knew closely and had learnt from all the great vidwans of his time --- Ariyakudi Ramanuja Iyengar, Papanasam Sivan, Muthiah Bhagavathar, Madurai Mani Iyer, Ambi Dikshitar, Mylapore Gowri Ammal. It was his great disappointment that he never learnt directly from Kotiswara Iyer. Rajam Sir had seen him often going to the Pillayar Koil around the tank but he was too young to know his greatness then. The passion for his kritis was to come later, during his AIR days.

With such a rich and wide learning experience, he managed to create a style that was his own. His individuality stood apart, in music as well as painting. He always thought of new ways of presenting the old. He was a teacher at heart. Even his concerts were viewed by him as an opportunity to tell people about new songs, ragas or composers. Probably the reason he was always considered a 'musicians' musician. He loved lecdems more than concerts. He would prepare meticulously for the programme. He would try to give an opportunity to as many students as possible. He would willingly give them as many rehearsals as they needed and encourage them to sing without inhibitions.

Rajam Sir was meticulous to the lastt. His works of art and music notes are stored immaculately in his cupboard. He knew exactly where to look for a particular script. He had his system of numbering and filing. He was a conservationist at heart. Every scrap of paper would be saved and reused. He would write scripts on the back of used envelopes, even draw sketches on them!

I have never seen him sit idle. He would either be painting or teaching music. If not, he would be reading something. His knowledge of our Puranas, our mythology was very deep. He would take care to have all the details before painting anything. This helped tremendously in his understanding of the context of sahitya in kritis of Thyagaraja and Dikshitar. He was particular about retaining the structure of a composition as visualized by the composer.

It was perhaps an innate understanding of another creator's mind. He loved the work he did. Art was his way of life and anything he did, he did artistically. His filing his nails was done with as much finesse as his painting work. He gave credit to his mother for this talent.

He would narrate with great awe about how even folding clothes or arranging washed utensils would appear artistic when done by his mother, Chellamma. She was apparently much sought after for making the 'mukham' or face of Goddess Lakshmi on Varalakshmi Puja day!

Every artist's art I believe is a reflection of his personality. Rajam sir's clear lines in his drawings and music sangathis were a sure representation of the clarity of his mind. He enjoyed plain notes in music too. It was important to him that one learnt to sing plain notes before learning ornamentation as this would ensure sruti and swara shuddham. There was never any ambiguity with him. He was forthright without being rude. He was appreciative but would give a rap on the head when required.

Rajam Sir took great pleasure in little things like the 4 o'clock hot Bajjis at the Woodlands Drive-in! (This was before it closed down) He loved crisp dosas and ice creams. He loved chocolate. He loved cheese and Marmite.

He did not care for awards or recognition. He was doing what he loved and that gave him happiness. People sought out his paintings. 10 Nadu Street became a known address; much like 10 Downing Street he would joke (His address was 10 Nadu Street when his father bought the house!) The greatest appreciation he cherished was an event that took place on his USA tour. He had sung 'Janaki Ramana' in raga Suddha Seemantini in a particular concert. At the end of the programme two elderly ladies in 'madisar'-nine yards sari-came up to him and said they had enjoyed the concert very much, particularly Janaki Ramana - his rendition reminded them of Naina Pillai's rendition! That, according to him, was the biggest honour he could ever get!

It is like a bad dream, no, a nightmare to think he is not there any more. He was like a bridge across various generations. He was alert till the end and could remember minute details about various incidents. He was one of the most positive persons I have ever come across. He was always planning projects ahead; perhaps that is what kept him so youthful. He was very affectionate and took great interest in everything I did.

As Mrs. Devaki Muthiah put it in a meeting soon after his demise-Rajam Sir can never die. He is 'Chiranjeevi'.

Sri S. Rajam breathed his last on 29th January 2010. A tribute to this legend can be viewed online at http://www.hindu.com/fr/2010/02/05/stories/2010020551040400.htm

  1. Song 1 Vijayalakshmy Subramaniam 12:00
  2. Song 2 Vijayalakshmy Subramaniam 8:06
  3. Song 3 Vijayalakshmy Subramaniam 11:07
  4. Song 4 Vijayalakshmy Subramaniam 12:57
  5. Song 5 Vijayalakshmy Subramaniam 1:37
  6. Song 6 Vijayalakshmy Subramaniam 5:56
  7. Song 7 Vijayalakshmy Subramaniam 10:01